For women who 'do it all'........

Can we have it all?

In the last week, I have started working two part time jobs. One is career related and the other is to bring home some extra money.I am learning to balance being a full time mother and a career woman and have experienced being sleep deprived on a whole new level, so I have to ask myself: Can I do it all or do I need to let something go?

Like many women out there, I want it all and I want it now.

After giving 'it all' to my son these past four months, I want to be able to afford the luxurious haircuts, pedicures and occassional massage for myself. I want my career as a writer to take off in between the day's diaper changes and singing lullebye's. I want time to cook dinner from scratch, fold the laundry and keep up with the dishes, and at bedtime still have the energy to read a good book. I am beginning to understand the frustration with the woman who wants it all.
I want it all, and I want to do it perfectly all the time. I also know deep down that something must go.

Maybe tomorrow I'll know how to tune down the expectations I put on myself, maybe tomorrow the balancing act will feel less challenging, maybe tomorrow I can give myself a break or two.

Maybe, tomorrow.